I was visiting EP's myspace [link] and well..he's not alive anymore. he hasn't been alive for about 2 months now. and I never even knew him. he has amazing music on his music myspace but... even though I never knew him I listened to his music. it was amazing his voice is wonderful.

I started to read through his comments and I realized how much death effects how you talk to people. there is one person, I'm not sure of his name but just about every other comment was him. he was talking about his day, how he missed him, the problems he had, and how he couldn't wait to see him again. and how much he loved him. after the 5th or 6th comment from this guy and a few others I burst into tears.

one girl had to say that she still can't accept that he's gone. her exact words: "Wow it still hasn't hit me the reality that your not coming back...i kick my self in the ass because we didn't stay close through out school and there is so much i would have liked to tell you so much i have a lot of memories to hold on to i just wish they were more recent .....your constantly on my mind and the worst part about it is that i think about you more now when your not here then when you were ....you said we would start hanging out cause we miss each other i never thought it would be my last good bye i miss you like crazy i miss you dancing behind me at parties i miss you wanting to constantly see my boobs i miss everything about you! just cant stand the thought of going to a reunion and not seeing you there i just dont get it sweetie and i dont think i ever will i just want you to know that you will always be in my heart and i will never forget you i love you sweetie i hope you knew i did

I started crying. and not just "oh how cute" crying but "come back eric, I miss you we all miss you" crying. I didn't even know him and I seen how he effected these people and it hurt my heart so bad. i never realized how one death could affect so many people like a ripple in a pool of water.

then there was this girl:
eric, im at loss for words. we go back to 5th grade.. when we were little boyfriend & girlfriend.. hehe i love you eric, ill always remember you.. watch over me angel<3

life is something that I think people take for granted too much. people don't care anymore. most people just want sex and drugs and to drop out of high school and live the "good life" or so they speak.

I think I'm going to go cry some more... I have the worst headache.
I love you all.